- *Note: Sorry for the mistakes.
"How much do you love me Gee?" I asked my eight-year-old best friend while we were on the swings. He looked at me, pressed his lips together and then he looked up at the sky, that meant he was thinking.
"A lot Frankie, you're my best friend!" He said smiling. I knew he wasn't lying, because he had done a lot of things for me, things that nobody had done for me.
"But.. how much is a lot?"
"A lot is.. a lot!" He laughed. I smiled at the thought of my best friend loving me, not in the way I wanted to but.. at least, he loved me.
"Give me an example of what does 'a lot' mean for you!" I smiled. He started thinking, looking everywhere. "Come on Gee!" I pouted.
"I got it!" He giggled, and then he pointed at the highest skyscraper. "I'd jump of this skyscraper for you"
My jaw dropped and I felt my heart skip a beat. I gave him my widest smile and my tightest hug.
"You are my best friend,and I will always love you. I promise I'll do" I said.
Ten years have passed since that day, the day that my best friend said he'd jump of a skyscraper for me, for Frank Iero.
Since that day, our friendship has been stronger than never. And everyday, I have to admit it, I fell in love more with him. He was so loving, kind, friendly, fun, sweet.. he was always there when you needed him, and he would give his life for the people he loves: his girlfriend would be an example.
They have been together for 3 months, and Gerard seems be crazy about her, he has always given her gifts, he has led her to restaurants and never raised his voice, unlike her. Sandy, that was his name, was .. unbearable, stupid, selfish, arrogant and greedy. She just didn't deserve someone like Gerard, but he was totally blinded .. until the day that he saw her cheating on him .. He ran home and she followed him. I was with Mikey when they came to the livingroom yelling at eachother.
"You've never cared about me! You were always busy thinking of you, you, and who else? Ah yes, YOU!" He shouted, not caring that we were ahead of them,
"That's a lie! You know I've always worried about you and what you want going on but you never tell me anything!"
"What?! I couldn't go to my grandmother's funeral because you kicked me out of my house asking me to take you to the NY Lake, and 5 minutes after to tell me you were bored and you wanted me to take you home!"
"You never told me your grandmother's died, I don't know what you're talking about! You try to blame me for things you can't!"
"Oh yes, I didn't say that my grandmother had died, that day I wasn't dressed in black, that day I haven't repeated again and again that I couldn't go with you! You know, I'm sick in this relationship! We weren't two, we were one, and that one was you! "
"Get out of my house, Sandy, and never come back"
"You know that this doesn't end here, because I'll destroy your fucking life!" And with this, the now Gerard's EX-girlfriend walked out of the house slamming the door. Gerard dropped down beside me on the couch and rested her head on my shoulder.
"Everything will be fine Gee.. I promise "I rested my cheek on his head and closed my eyes.
~ A few days later ~
I was lying in my bed, occupied with my thoughts .. which were summarized in one word: Gerard, when my mobile rang. I rolled over and looked at the screen of the mobile .. him.
"F-Frank .. I need you .. come to the hospital, please .. "Just to hear the last sentence, I got up and ran away from home for the hospital.
"I'm in the way, what happened?"
"Is Mikey .. Frank, he's in critical condition .. I need you now .."
" I'm coming, I'll be there in 10 minutes. "
Lucky for me, I didn't live far from the hospital, and you can be there in 15 minutes walking faster. Upon entering I asked the receptionist for 'Mikey Way', and as she said me the room where he was, I run there without wasting a second. Upon arrival, I knocked on the door softly and opened it. The first person I saw was with Mikey lying in a bed full of wires and machines around, he seemed so .. weak .. I looked at the right and I found Gerard sitting on a old couch, looking down with his hands on both sides of his head, mumbling things I couldn't hear.
"Gerard?" I said in a low tone as I approached him. He didn't look at me, so I knelt in front of him. "Gee, what happened?"
"He has been run over, Frank ..that bitch almost killed my brother .." At the sound of the word 'bitch' the only person that came to mind was, of course, Sandy.
"Sandy has done this?"
"She told me she would destroy my life, and what better way to do it that kill my little brother? Frank, he's in a coma, doctors don't know if he'll wake up .. "
"Oh my god .." I said almost in a sigh. I sat next to him and hugged him tight, as tight as I could, while he hid his head in the crook of my neck and cried silently. "Everything will be fine, don't worry .."
"What happens if it doesn't be fine? What happens if he doesn't wake up, Frank? I won't be able to live without my little brother .." I pulled away a bit from him, and lifted his face, looking into his eyes.
"He'll wake up, I know, ok? Nothing will go wrong, trust me" He just nodded and rested his head on my shoulder, and as always, I rested my cheek on his head, stroking his back trying to calm him
One week. One week after Mikey went into a coma and he hasn't woken up .. Since that, I have had to stay with Gerard, because at night he wakes up shouting and sobbing.
"Shh .. quiet, Mikey is right, it will be fine, you'll see.." I said, stroking his back trying to calm down and return him to sleep.
"I'm afraid Frank.. don't leave me.."
"I would never, never leave you Gee"
"I love you .. "
"I love you too .. but try to sleep, I'll be here all the time" He gave me a small smile, and laid down again, falling asleep in minutes. I was watching him sleep a while .. he looked so cute, so peaceful .. all I wanted to do was take care of him, my best friend, the person that I'm in love with for years ..
The next morning I woke up with Frank snuggled beside me. I couldn't help stay looking at him for a while, he looked so quiet ... I didn't want to wake him, so I got up and went upstairs to the kitchen. When I came in I froze. M-Mikey?
"M-Mi .. Mikey!?" Mikey turned and smiled at me. I ran to him and hugged him as tight as I could. "I was so afraid of losing you .." I felt tears came to my eyes.
"Hey .. but don't cry .." He pulled away from me and wiped away the tears from my eyes. "I'm here, everything is fine" he smiled.
"Mikey!?" I heard Frank say behind me, I turned and pulled away a little from Mikey, who was hugged by Frank.
After spending time talking to Mikey, I told Frank to get dressed because I wanted to take him to a special place. My place.
"Yep" He said with a smile.
"Then let's go" I smiled and unconsciously took his hand. I thought he would let me go and ask me, creating an awkward atmosphere, but instead of it, he grabbed me tightly, afraid as if he let me go, I would run away. We had been walking for a while, and he started to get impatient.
"How much do we have to walk?" He grimaced.
"No more Frankie .. is right there" I said and pointed to the park where we used to go when we were 8. We arrived and sat on the grass, as close to eachother as we could. Frank was looking at the sky, and I decided to break the silence.
"Yeah?" I started to feel nervous, and my pulse was running out of control. "Well... I... well, hmmm.. I wanted to say thanks, because you′ve done a lot of things for me when I broke up with Sandy, when Mikey was in coma...and for the nights- " I was cut by him talking.
"Gee, you don't have to say thanks for anything... that's what you do for the person you are in love with, be with him until the last mom.." He trailed off. His eyes widened and he covered his mouth. He just told me that he loves me? Frankie.. loves me?
"Frank.. do you love me..?"
"I.. I think I should go.." He stood up and started to walk away but I stood up fastly and grabbed him by his wrist.
"Frankie, don't go"
"Gerard, I don't wanna stay here while you probably will tell me that we won't work because you don't lov-"
"I love you Frank"
"I said that I love you.. but not as a best friend, as something more.."
"I love you too Gee..a lot" he said stroking my cheek. Then he got on his toes and leaned down to kiss me.
We laid both in the grass, his head on my chest and my hand stroking his hair ..
"How much is 'a lot' for you?"
"Um .. I'd jump of a skyscraper for you."